{creating myself}

i've been soo sick lately that i've been comatose to the outside world!

the past four days have been torturous misery for me. i was in the hospital with uncontrollable flu symptoms and then on bedrest blah blah. i'm just starting to come around- actually beginning to get my vision back and able to walk around a little bit.  the only good thing about bedrest is that you get to ignore your phone and watch as much Juno as you want :).

i've sort of been ignoring all civil duties... homework, housework, crafting... luckily, my family has been here helping me out with other stuff (getting out of bed, eating, staying warm).

anyways, just wanted to say hi. i'm off to watch Taken and eat ice cream with my dad, who is now also sick. pobrecito.

♥

happy fourth of july! :)

check me out over at this blog party today.... soo much fun, inspiration, + giveaways! and it's going on all weekend! :)

happy 4th loves!
xxo

have you hugged your chuck taylors today?

still in that sharing mode.

time to go out and see what's out there.

love xx

i need a change in appearance. and a haircut.

warning: this post may bore some many.

if you're like me, you like to change your look often.
if you're like me, sometimes you like to be a rocker. sometimes you like to be a geek. sometimes you like to be marilyn, and sometimes you like to be audrey.
you could be a bartender, a teacher, a fashionista, a student, a lover, and an artist.
and you probably like change. especially changes in hair.

this is pretty much my signature style, what i always go back to. long, straight, and dark.

then i added highlights...

and then i added more. i don't know what i was thinking here.

and then i got bored and chopped it all off (i've done this several times for locks of love) ...but i never wanted it this short.

and in walked shelley.

and then i decided i wanted a more classic look, i believe i called this back to basics.

and then i got really bored so i cut my bangs. and learned how to use a curling iron.

hmm... what next?? i can't really put color because of the whole thinning/balding thing... depressing sigh.
i guess it will have to be a pretty drastic haircut.

i don't really have the time (i'm on vacation) or the money (i'm unemployed) right now, so i'll just have to make do with what i have and add accessories, focus on clothes and makeup, headbands, etc etc.

anyway, don't say i didn't warn you! :)
xo

be mine.

polaroids
real simple mag
red lip gloss
blackberry
teal sunglasses
cold cherries
sweet dreams
used bookstores
pink nail polish
chuck taylors + lace
emo lyrics and photos on layouts
edward + bella dolls (so creepy)
n.y. summer air
expression of self:
tattoos, blogs, photos, emotions, fashion
friends that you talk to after forever and it's as though no time has passed
typewriter fonts
painting paper + ceramics

dear polaroid: how did i ever live without you? please never leave me. love, amy

there are so many exciting things about this week.

1. new polaroid camera
2. new boots
3. to wear to kenny chesney tonight
4. new york
5. family bday party on saturday
6. crafts with megan tomorrow night
7. crafts right now

so happy. xo

have you lost weight?

I’ve always kind of despised this question, mostly because people seem to ask it every time they see me and partly because it implies that I was ugly/fat before. Which I was (the latter), but still.  Annoying.

I didn’t go searching for this photos, but I was being nostalgic on the airplane today and came across a photo of my friends and I from a few years ago… I suppose there is a big difference between the two… I am about 30 pounds lighter now than I was then. I knew this… but I’ve never compared photos until now. I can’t believe how bad I look in that pic! Ahhh. Maybe it’s just a bad angle… ;)

A lot of people have asked… I cut carbs, pretty much completely. For almost a year.  Now, I work out, usually 3-5 times per week (a good week), and eat 4-5 small healthy meals/snacks (a good day).  I’m more concerned with being active/healthy/not a bum than I am with being america’s next top model (I’m barely 5’6 and I still have plenty of T+A).  I still have 10 more pounds to lose.  But it’s a good feeling.

As for “have you lost weight?”… I’m going to just start saying no. haha :)

i like to call photo one freshman twenty. photo two was taken just a few days ago.

xo

hello, new york city. let's get inspired.

sidetracked:
i realize that these photos aren't the best. if you haven't noticed, i've been without a scanner for quite some time now. if you want clearer images or more layout peeks or just want to support the cause, please click here :).
(pheobe: if you would like to receive e-mails about my upcoming shows, then please, buy me a computer.")

i also realize that i've been a little confusing lately about the whole relationship thing. i don't like to go into too much depth about my personal life here (that has led to some flaming assumptions and accusations in the past), but i will say that any layouts regarding love, relationships, or the beatings of my heart were mostly likely made pre-June. chris and i are currently not together.

is that tasteful enough?

:)   A

operation get up off your ass and be productive.

no, seriously. your house will thank you.

stuff i have to do: clean, scrub, vacuum, laundry, dishes, more laundry (does it ever end?), unpack (scrapbook stuff) and repack (new york stuff- i leave tuesday), start + finish divorce presentation for family counseling.

stuff i have done: called dad, coffee with someone cute, created new + condensed old itunes playlists, twittered twice, actually checked my e-mail to make sure i sent the e-mails i thought i sent, made nuni really happy with the news that i passed my teacher certification exam, conducted a short photobooth session (i stopped myself early) and then edited the photos, blogged (duh), listened to a mix between boyz II men and the juno soundtrack.

i have serious issues.

happy daddy day. this was the day my dad told me i look like lucille ball.

layouts part two!

more to come. xo

poor, destitute, pretty bankie.

underwent serious surgery today. he was falling apart at the seams... hanging by a thread... and all of the other cliches about old fabrics that are actually true.

so anyway, i woke up the other night and he was choking me in my sleep. well, my neck was literally through one of his huge holes.

the aftermath:

that's all i have the energy to report tonight. too busy working on my life to*do list.
not working really helps :)

how am i supposed to do homework and go to the gym when there are soo many arts + crafts to be made in the world?

p.s. (pre script):  i'm going to start using tweets as blog post titles. seems like a good idea :).

this is just a preview, because i actually do have to start homework and go to the gym, but i am too excited for this new venture!

okay, not so much as a venture as a hobby... whatever you call it. i like to call it operation redecorate: clothes edition.
you get the idea.

some new (older) dapskies.

from the past couple of months.... some are kind of ironic... but wanted to post them nonetheless... :)

why do i feel like these photos bear resemblance to each other?

i can only wish to look like scarlett :).
or rachel bilson, 
MK+A, 
jenan, 
alexis....
i love beautiful women :)

elle june 09


me circa june 2008